It’s a brand new year! Even though nothing magically changed when the calendar changed from 2016 to 2017, I love that we all as a society take the time to try to reset, reevaluate, and strive for a better life in the new year. I thought that this year I’d try to do a “word of the year”, but I realized that I couldn’t find one word to perfectly encapsulate my feelings for 2017. A phrase did, however.It may seem a bit silly to have this be my guiding phrase for 2017, especially when I am decidedly not planning on spending this year searching for the plans of the Death Star in the face of overwhelming odds (seriously, if you haven’t seen Rogue One yet, GO SEE IT. IT IS SO GOOD). So why is this my phrase for the year?
Because even though I’m not engaged in a giant rebellion against the forces of the Dark Side, I do have my own battles to fight. 2016 was a year that knocked me down quite a bit, so 2017 is the year I’m rebelling, and I’m fighting back.
I’m fighting back against my anxiety and depression, and am not going to let myself be overcome by them anymore. I’m getting the help I need, and I’m going to start taking better care of myself. That means physically and emotionally.
I’m fighting back against injustice. I’m just one person, but I’ve decided to use this year to do whatever I can to do good in the world and fight against the bad in it.
I’m fighting back against feeling obligated to do certain things and act certain ways. There are really only a handful of things that I actually have to do every day. This year, I’m going to work on letting myself step back from things that I either no longer have the time/mind-space to do, I no longer have the desire to do, or that I simply think I shouldn’t do anymore. I’m going to let myself feel more comfortable with myself as I am, allow myself to enjoy those things I love, and let myself let go of those things in my life that just bring me trouble.
I’m fighting back against feeling directionless. I feel like it’s not that unique of a problem to be a millennial these days and feel totally directionless and like you have no clue what you’re doing with you life. However, I’m getting closer to turning 30 every day, so I’m going to use this year to really find where I fit.
I don’t want to end 2017 feeling like I wasted an entire year, so this is the year I’m rebelling against, well, myself. Or rather, I’m rebelling against the crazy expectations I put on myself. I’m choosing to be hopeful that I can find a better grasp on my own mental health, that I can actually do some good in the world, and that I can find a life that brings me direction and joy. It is a bit cliché, but that feels like a crazy mountain to climb. I’ve been fighting with myself for just shy of 3o years now, so to try to make any sort of headway towards direction and peace seems almost like an unattainable goal. Still, rebellions are built on hope, and I’m ready to start rebelling against those things that have kept me in places I no longer want to be.
What changes are you making in 2017? Do you have a word or phrase for the year? Tell me in the comments!